I’m a worrier. I admit it. I think I always have been. In college it was actually so bad I began having anxiety attacks. Not fun. I worry about a number of things. Some unimportant, some silly, some serious. I’m proud to say that I do so much better now than when I was younger. I have learned to realize that there are some things that I just cannot change, and so there is no use in worrying. Maybe that’s why I have always been fond of this prayer…..
It pretty much sums up how one should look at the world. And a majority of the time this way of thinking has given me much relief. Thankfully.
Then I became a mom. Four little lives dependent on my husband and me for their every need. Reason to worry? Definitely. And I do, but not as often as the old me would have. I have grown stronger in my faith. I have a husband to lean on and help me. I have strong, healthy, beautiful children. We are blessed.
Of course being a mom means that worry never completely leaves you. I try to be strong for my family.
Today I face a test, albeit small, it’s still a test. Our youngest son W, has to have a tooth worked on at the dentist. They say it didn’t form correctly, causing rapid decay. He, of course, is oblivious to what will happen. I have told him the dentist will fix it and that he needs to listen to him and be good. He replied with an upbeat “ok Mom!” I worry.
He is excited about going to the dentist. His tooth hurts and they will make it better. I worry. I have always been afraid of the dentist (for absolutely no reason). I don’t want to pass this fear on to my children. I worry some more.
I know many parents face much more terrifying and difficult things with their children. I know that tomorrow my worry will be silly. But I’m a parent. A mom, and so still I worry.
My worry reminds me what the Good Book says:
“And which of you by worrying can add even one hour to his life?” (Matthew 6:27)
And so I say a little prayer for my little man.
I pray that all goes smoothly and he leaves his appointment as upbeat and unafraid as he arrived.