I blinked my eyes and the beginning of October came and went. Halloween is fast approaching and I am not doing a good job of creating a blogging schedule. I apologize to you all.
This month’s “Who I Am” post took some thinking. It’s probably the most obvious thing about me, but I struggled with whether I should write about it or not. Wondering what you, my reader, might think. What the reaction would be.
Well, here it goes.
I am a mom.
You’re probably thinking, “It’s October and you are just now writing about this? Why the hesitation?”
Because I didn’t always want to be a mom.
It wasn’t even on my radar. At all.
I’ve heard other moms say that they couldn’t wait to have a baby, it was their “life-long dream,” or their “purpose.” I would think, “wow! Motherhood was their goal?”
I didn’t understand.
Growing up, I wasn’t around babies or little ones very much. I was an only child. My cousins had little ones (that I LOVE!), but we lived far from them. I didn’t experience a lot of the growing-up process, as I would only see them a few times a year.
Honestly, it really didn’t occur to me how little I knew about babies until I started dating my husband. He is from a large family (11 kids)! As you can imagine, his life experiences and view of things was much different than mine. He is the third youngest so, by that time, most of his brothers and sisters were married with kids.
We would visit his siblings often, especially his one sister and her husband. They just had a baby about the time we started dating. Seeing, my then boyfriend, interact with the new little baby amazed me.
I’m talking life altering amazed. He was so natural. So happy.
You could just feel how much he enjoyed the baby.
Thinking back, I can still picture him holding his little nephew, laughing and talking to him.
I know it sounds crazy, but I knew that moment, that I wanted to be a mom. Without a doubt.
I FINALLY understood the “dream.” Feeling the happiness and love, I knew I wanted that too.
Now that I am a mom I can’t imagine a life without my kids.
They fill every day with wonder and adventure. Fun and laughter.
They inspire me to be better. They give me new purpose.
They teach me more than I think I can ever teach them.
They are my joy.
I love them and I love being a mom!
I read this once, and I can truly say, that
“My greatest blessings call me ‘mom!'”
If you missed any past “Who I Am” posts, check them out here:
Did you always know you wanted to be a parent?
Thanks for stopping in…Kim